If you have read my blog before then you’ll know that since losing Teddy I have been trying my very best to ensure my body is fit and healthy in order to carry another baby.  After we lost another pregnancy at fifteen weeks in January this year, I felt as though my body had failed me.  It was supposed to be our time, our rainbow of hope, and yet it still didn’t happen for us.  To say I felt let down or disappointed is probably the understatement to end them all.  I was pretty bereft if I’m honest with myself.